Here's a little poem I just finished.  Tell me world what you think.  I call it "Lonelyville."

My angel left me at my windowsill,
staring out into Lonelyville.
There’s snowflakes falling soft and slow,
I wonder why she would ever go.
I take a drink to ease the pain,
but all the memories, they still remain.
I close my eyes and remember the place,
The first time I saw her face.
I can feel her touch, it’s soft as gold.
Thought we would grow together old.
Hear a noise, awake from my dream.
Try to boost my self-esteem.
It’s the garbage man, here for my heart.
Appears it’s useless all torn apart.
Weather man says nothing but a cold storm,
I used to have her love to keep me warm.
It’s time for work I better leave.
Now’s not the time to grieve.
In the end I guess it was all fake.
Just a case of the Lonelyville heartbreak.

So I don't update this often, and most people don't even know I have this, so I guess it really doesn't matter.  But anyways life lately has been real shitty.  Normally I keep everything bottled in, but I can no longer do this.  Im wrecking myself.  Nothing has gone right for me in awhile.  I'm so fucking lonely and no one seems to notice or care that I have no motivation for life itself anymore.  I've officially failed out of college, and have no intentions of telling my parents.  I don't know if I'll be around that long that they will need to know.  Oh well.  All I have left is drinking and gambling, and well I can't even afford either of them anymore.  I sleep all flipping day, stay up all night, and have absolutly nothing to be proud of at the moment.  I don't know how much longer I can live this shitty life, and with hunting season rolling around I have a feeling it's gonna be hard not to pull that trigger while I'm out in those cold dreary woods.  Anyways, I'm gonna get back to doing nothing again.  I'll leave you with a little something I found written on a desk the last time I went to class.  I don't know where or who it is from but I wish it was complete or someone would complete it, I think it's really good.

"All that I know

All that I believe

It's all crumbling images

That no longer comforts me

I scramble to reach higher ground

some order and sanity"

Tormented soul cloaked in nightmarish dreams,
Cruel day, cruel night, devilish screams!
Your smell, your taste, your touch remembered,
Love's breadth of passion fitfully surrendered.

Shattered, lost, I'm shamelessly broken,
Guilty of love, your name rarely spoken!
Desperate passion stripped to the bone,
Night's naked emotion, frustrated alone.

Quietly, breathlessly, love waxes cold,
You are mine forever and ever to hold.
Ghostly character stealing my thoughts,
Imprisoned, burdened, sorrowed and wroth.

Needing and wanting, once lovers compelled,
Romance and kisses, my love you withheld?
Stirred embers emblazoned, stolen my heart,
Forsaken lost love made vain when apart.

Hauntingly tossed away, memories deceived,
Cherished forever and timelessly bereaved.
Afraid of forgetting, endearment's desire,
Rejected and scorned, my love died by fire.

This one is untitled, can you give me a little help?

River Of Tears

To feel one's pain, look in their eyes
a river of tears tells no lies.
Killing the mind with secrets to share,
no one to listen, no one to care.
A feeling of hurt that won't disappear,
for fear and loneliness of someone so near.
A world without dreams destroyed by sorrow,
there's no looking back for there is no tomorrow.
A destruction in itself for there will always be fears,
a lonely heart, a river of tears.